Today I was reading my memories on FB one of the great things about FB is I can save my thoughts pictures interactions and bitching lol…I am pathologically disorganized.
So yay for FB.
..I saw in 2014 I reached out for help removing my ex from my life..my words were carefully chosen and as I hesitantly wrote I was seeking someone who could help me remove the ‘energy’…his energy was sick…mine was no better..I could literally feel the fear through the post. I was alone but had so many around me.
I had begun practicing Reiki in late 2013..I had done Reiki twice a day and prayed a certain prayer while lighting a,candle…it was,a prayer written by me…I still have it in my book..as I meditated on the Reiki allowing god to empower me I would recite the prayer twice a day.
I could literally feel the energy changing..something changed in me as well not only did I wake up but I realized my worth..my gifts..what I WAS outside of everyone else.. so much was revealed to me at that time.
Although in my pain I was an ass needy and whiny. I was not a very good person back then. My soul changed my spirit made the connection to God who resided within me and I had feared and taken for granted for too long.
I became aware of that power. The loving but just and potent power of God.
The more I prayed the more I sent Reiki the more things changed…subtle at first then very obviously.
My ex became worse verbally but somehow couldn’t do what he used to…he used to kick me as I walked in front of him up the stairs..BIG man you know. 😬
At that time I would notice he did not come too close any longer.
He would stand in the yard and stare at me with a look of confusion as if he couldn’t figure out what had changed…..I saw my father then in his face. It was his script after all I was reading from. I don’t blame my ex fully because I was there too and my dysfunction aided and abetted his.. sad really.
In the end God heard me..he for the millionth time in my life intervened…this is not a sad post this is a grateful post…I never saw,anything change what is around me like I did and do when I meditated and sent Reiki..such a profound gift…God is great and I am grateful.so too can you be if you simply make the connection to God in your way and your time…I pray you do… and receive beauty for ashes. 🙂 🙂 Thank you God in Jesus name. 🌹🌹💜